Okay ... I suck.

2 months later, I'm finally resurfacing into the world of blogging...not sure what's to come...but brace yourself.

I'm a little bit grumpy these days.

The making of memory lane.

Okay so my body is really struggling with the time differences, but it seems to be finally getting into the swing of things. Granted, it's 2:20 in the am right now back home, but it's 11:20 am where my butt is planted.

So this town that I am in.... is gorgeous. So amazingly gorgeous. Even though I hail from some of the lushest and most rich landscape that there is in the States....it's so much MORE here, and I often find myself holding my breath in excitement as we turn corners and a new view pulls into my line of sight.

Yesterday we went for a walk around the town here. They have real cobblestone roads, not everywhere, but they are here. In the old part of town. Like in the fairytales, and I can't help but wonder if I'm living in one at the moment. This land is so rich in history, so beautiful in detail, just absolutely amazing.



There is a house here, where a lady lived. Well I'm sure there are a lot of houses with a lot of ladies that have lived there, but this house specifically is the home of the woman who told the Brother's Grimm the stories that they became famous for.

What an amazing woman she must have been, and I wonder....did she think up those stories? Or were they passed down to her by her mother, and her mother's mother, and so on and so forth. Whatever the case, the Brother's were definitely opportunists, and knew a goldmine when they heard one. This blog is taking longer than expected to write because I keep getting distracted by someone. .... back to the blog.

There was this tunnel that we walked through to get from one side of the road to the other, and underneath there was this cool graffiti thing, but it was made out of cement.


I guess that's all for now. Today is a Holiday here, and everything is closed. We may go for a drive, but it's pretty stormy. Who knows.

More later....

Hold on to your hats and glasses!

I know it's been 6 months since I've blogged, and I'm sorry. Life is one helluva roller coaster, for sure.

That said, I'm typing this blog up while in my boyfriend's room in Germany. :) The next few days I"ll *hopefully* be blogging with some pictures of this amazing country, and the places we go while I"m here.

Just a quick side note: the weather in Germany is MUCH like the weather in Oregon. I'm just saying, it's a trip.

We stopped on the way home and took some pics of the landscape.

Ebb & flow

I have no clue where this blog is going to go, if it will be boring meaningless drival used to take up precious minutes of your day (or night -- depending entirely upon you and when you choose to read my ramblings), OR if this might actually contain some useful information, interesting facts, or [gasp] maybe even a crack or two at some humor. Because, really...how hard is it for one to imagine me attempting to be humorous?

The last few months have really afforded me the time to sit back, look around, and take inventory of what few (and faithful) friends I have left remaining in my life. Some have chosen to end the friendship, because of vicious rumors that they failed to approach me about. Some have decided to part ways, due to our lives taking separate paths, and others have ended due to my hand. Whatever the case may have been, I've found myself quite alone, and although I'm more often alone in the literal sense...I realize I'm actually never alone. I have friends now, who are more than just friends. They have become much like family for me. The road that I've been down these past few months has been a very dark road. The clouds have consistently clouded the rays of the sun and the beam of moonlight that I've always used to follow the path ahead of me. Now I'm blindly stumbling, tripping often, and have even fallen a time or two. But each time, those faithful friends, have always stood there, holding my hands, guiding me along and picking me up when I've sat down to rest. They've dusted me off, and encouraged me along, when all I wanted to do was curl up into a ball and wither away into the dust upon which I lie.

Life is full of choices. The choices are yours to make. Be wise, be thoughtful, and be considerate when making your choices. Remember that they not only affect you, but EVERY single person that you are in contact with. Make these choices so that you can live your life without regret.

And if you've made decisions that led to regret, learn from them. Don't do it twice. First time, shame on them. Second time, shame on you. Dot your i's, cross your t's, and trot along life's happy little freeway of insanity. Fill up when you need, brake when necessary, but most importantly...go with the flow. Because really, you only get this ONE chance at life. And it's up to you how happy, or miserable, you will be. Once you realize this, life in all it's glory, will never slow you down. Be you. Be courageous. Be loved. Because you are.

...hm. Not as much humor as I"d hoped for. :P

P.S. Please dont' mistake ANY of this as me voicing regret. I have absolutely no regrets.

If today was your last day....

So Nickelback's new CD came out. They have a song on it called "If Today Was Your Last Day". It's such an inspiring song, and it's made me realize that my life was not being lived to it's fullest extent. So now I'm done.

I'm going to live my life as it is...my life. not live for other people. Obviously I'm not going to become some rude bitch, that's just not my style. But I am going to stop trying to please everyone with the decisions that I make. I think I started down that path back in July.

This year has not exactly been full of joy. But a LOT of silver linings can be found amongst the clouds that shadowed this past 12 months. I'm very excited for this next year, and all that it holds. Relationships will grow, friendships will strengthen, traveling to be had, and birthdays to celebrate. Not to mention that every day is a gift. :) So many things are set to happen, and I'm so very excited to see what this coming year holds for me. And the ones I love. 2008 was a pretty shitty year for most everyone I know. Let's just hope '09 is a million times better.


cheers.

I have issues....

Many
many
issues.
most of you know them. :)
some of you dont'.

But.........
whatever. My issues make me ... uniquely me. :D
And..I'm still loved.
Yay me!

here's a way to make my day

turn to shit.

X puts daughter on phone so I can say hi.
Daughter (excitedly) gets on phone and says "Hi (insert x's gf's name)"

Wow.
And it was such a gorgeous morning. Really.
Ironically the sun just decided to hide...causing the entire atmosphere of my day to change.
Not just my disposition.